Where to start...

Well, it has been a week since my last post.. and so much has happened! I don't even know where to start. I am still in Malaysia, will fly back home on Sunday.. getting a bit down about it now. Going to miss many things about Malaysia, mostly the little, "petite" things that have certainly changed my outlook on life. It has certainly been a most interesting visit and an incredibly big learning experience. I have learned many things, mostly about myself. Where I do and do not belong and what I am really looking for in life. Kinda hard to explain it all.. so I have decided just not to. I think there will be some rather large changes coming soon in my life. All up, an exciting and terrifying start to the New Year.. and there is nothing I would have changed about it... except I might have acted a little sooner on certain things.

There is so much more I want to write but I have to think about how to word it.

I did have a kind of epiphany the other day.. You always hear people talking about how God will test us by placing temptations in our path that we must avoid at all costs.. but must we really? Does God not want us to be happy? Maybe sometimes (not every time) it is not an Evil temptation, but something that we need to consider actually taking. Maybe God has put it there because it would make us happy, not as a temptation to be avoided. Clearly this does not apply to everything.. For all those numbnuts out there, "temptations" such as harmful drugs are still bad you muppets! He may want us to be happy but I am pretty certain he doesn't want us smashed out of our skulls knocking at Death's door. Maybe sometimes these things are worth thinking about. I have recently come across something that I was certain I should avoid, and maybe now I am just making excuses, but it has changed how I feel about many things and I personally think had a rather positive effect on me.. so is it really so bad?

Rock on peoples :p

~ Martin